It is T-17 days until I turn 40, and I am surprised at how that base 10 number is affecting me. It is not that I feel old, it is more that I am looking back on my life to this point and wondering what (if anything) I have done with it. I would never say that I have wasted my life, but the last several years have been empty and devoid of meaning and purpose. I lost myself. This isn't a midlife crisis or anything of the sort. A couple years ago I fell into the deepest depression I have ever experienced. Through it, I disconnected from everything and everyone I ever loved. I lost almost all of my friends, and I don't blame them. I was not a good person to be around.
Take back your life one thing at a time
Take back your life one thing at a time
Take back your life one thing at a time
It is T-17 days until I turn 40, and I am surprised at how that base 10 number is affecting me. It is not that I feel old, it is more that I am looking back on my life to this point and wondering what (if anything) I have done with it. I would never say that I have wasted my life, but the last several years have been empty and devoid of meaning and purpose. I lost myself. This isn't a midlife crisis or anything of the sort. A couple years ago I fell into the deepest depression I have ever experienced. Through it, I disconnected from everything and everyone I ever loved. I lost almost all of my friends, and I don't blame them. I was not a good person to be around.