My name is Charlie, but if your looking for my work, I go by C. E. Dorsett. I write scifi, fantasy, and a touch of horror. I like to play with gothic, steampunk, decopunk, epic fantasy, and wuxia. I love to tell stories and talk about books, movies, series, and music.
Feeling alive is a big part of authentically being ourselves. Everyone of us has something that makes us feel alive.
When I started writing this, Everything louder than Everything Else by Meatloaf from Bat Out of Hell II: Back into Hell came on. I love it when serendipity lends a helping hand.
If the thrill is gone then its time to take it back
I know that I will never be politically correct And I don’t give a damn about my lack of etiquette As far as I’m concerned the world could still be flat And if the thrill is gone then its time to take it back If the thrill is gone then its time to take it back Who am i? Why am I here? Forget the questions someone get me another beer
It is so easy to get caught up in the big questions. We get distracted from living in the search for purpose and meaning. I know what you are thinking, didn’t say that we want meaning and purpose? that those are prerequisites for happiness?
Yes! But we will never find those things by sitting around trying to figure out what they are.
It is more important to live authentically than to be able to describe who you are in words.
It is more important to follow your bliss than to sit around trying to figure out why you are here?
While those are important questions, the answers are learned through action, and not thought.
You gotta learn to dance
Whats the meaning of life? Whats the meaning of it all? You gotta learn to dance Before you learn to crawl You gotta learn to dance Before you learn to crawl
I experience by bliss and live in passion most profoundly when I:
- Am telling stories.
- Attending conventions.
- Listening to music.
- Watching movies and series that matter to me.
I didn’t figure this out by sitting around and thinking about, but through doing it.
I started DMing AD&D in middle school. I loved telling stories so much that I wrote my first novel in 8th grade, my second by 12th. My third and fourth about 2 years apart. I never would have learned how much I loved to tell stories if it wasn’t for AD&D and Vampire: The Masquerade.
I am mortally afraid of public speaking. I never would have started this blog and our podcasts if Shore Leave hadn’t put me on a GLBT in Fandom panel, forcing me to do it. I enjoyed it, and starting blogging and podcasting shortly there after.
The lesson is: We discover our passions by doing things that make us feel alive.
If you are curious about something, try it. If you enjoy it, keep doing it.
Army of the Night
So sign up, all you raw recruits Throw away those designer suits You got your weapons cocked, your targets in your sights There’s a party raging, somewhere in the world You gotta serve your country, gotta service your girl You’re all enlisted in the army of the night
Consider this your draft notice! Somewhere, someone is doing something that will enrich your life to a degree you cannot even imagine.
- Find it
- Figure out what about it you love
- Discover your passion
- Find ways to do more of it
Take it from someone who knows. Authentic living is better than any other high.
I aint in it for…
And I ain’t in it for the power And I ain’t in it for my health I ain’t in it for the glory of anything at all And I sure ain’t in it for the wealth But I’m in it ‘til it’s over And I just can’t stop If you want to get it done, you have to do it yourself And I like my music like I like my life Everything louder than everything else
Always remember what you are doing it for. It isn’t money or power or fame. It is because your heart beats to the rhythm of that drum, and you have to keep the party going.
Life is for the living! If we are not alive, we need to find that spark and ignite it again!
Acting our Age
They say I’m wild and I’m reckless I should be acting my age I’m an impressionable child In a tumultuous world And they say I’m at a difficult stage
But it seems to me to the contrary Of all the crap they’re gonna put on the page That a wasted youth is better by far Then a wise and productive old age
I really truly believe that if we follow our bliss and live our passions, we have actually set ourselves in accord with the cosmos. We are doing what we are here on this earth to do.
Everything in life is a challenge. Are we going to move forward or move back. If moving forward requires us to sell out who we are at our very core, then that is the wrong path.
A youthful spirit and a mature intellect are the most valuable tool we could have in life. Don’t let anyone take them from you, and NEVER give them up!
The three I admire most…
If you want my views of history Then there’s something you should know The three men I admire most Are Curly, Larry, Moe Don’t worry about the future Sooner or later it’s the past If they say the thrill is gone then its time to take it back If the thrill is gone then its time to take it back
Now that you have discovered your passion, see if you can find a couple people who make a living doing that and study how they do it. Establish a plan, and work toward achieving it.
Everything louder than everything else
Now is the time to just sing along!
So sign up, all you raw recruits Throw away those two bit suits You got your weapons cocked, your targets in your sights There's a party raging, somewhere in the world You gotta serve your country, gotta service your girl Youre all inducted in the army of the night And I aint in it for the power And I aint in it for my health I aint in it for the glory of anything at all And I sure aint in it for the wealth But Im in it til its over And I just cant stop If you want to get it done, you got to fight for yourself And I like my music like I like my life Everything louder than everything else
Interview: Ryan Copple from Riese the Series
Yes, this is our first foray into a serialized media. We've all worked on smaller projects, such as pilots and short films. It's been good practice to prepare for something as big as Riese.
Why did you decide to make a steampunk series?
It's funny, people have really taken to branding us a "steampunk series", which I don't 100% agree with. Don't misunderstand, I love the steampunk genre, and there are lot of elements we drew from it for the show. I love all the anachronisms in steampunk and the way you can meld eras together to create an entirely new world. We are, however, not having this story take place in a Victorian-era, which is more typical of steampunk. That's why we always try to say steampunk-inspired - we were heavily influenced by the story elements and aesthetics of it, but it would be unfair to the genre itself to say we were totally steampunk.
What other steampunk books/series/comics do you like?
[reus name="Last Exile"]I haven't read that many steampunk books yet, though people have been giving me a list that I need to get through. I'm more familiar with the film and television aesthetic. My personal favorite is 'Last Exile', an anime series that people often put with steampunk. The story is great, and the designs and aesthetic is wonderful.
If you had to compare Riese to another series/movie, what would you compare it to?
If I had to pick, I'd say it's a cross between.
How did you decide to make an Alternative Reality Game (ARG)?
We wanted to create an adventure that would help draw viewers into the world of Riese before we launched. By immersing them in the story even before the show began, we thought it might make players feel more connected to the show as they've been introduced to many of the elements already.
What was the ARG creation experience like?
Well, it's still going on, and it's both exciting and daunting at the same time. I'd say the biggest challenge is keeping up with everyone. You can spend days and days creating puzzles that you think will be challenging, only to have them solved in 15 minutes.
What has the response to the ARG been?
Positive so far. My biggest regret is that we lack the resources to make it as expansive as we would have liked. We've kept it pretty small in scope this time, but I know that we have another one planned for down the road that'll be even bigger, assuming the show succeeds.
What tech are you using to make the series?
One big technological asset has been shooting with the RED One. It's an amazing digital camera that has absolutely revolutionized film. It also makes more sense to use for us, as a webseries, because our content is going straight to computers. Shooting on film, while beautiful, would be overkill for a project such as this where the picture quality won't translate to streaming as it does on HD television screens or movies. With the RED we can optimize our media platform and do it economically.
How many people are involved in making the series?
Too many to count off the top of my head - we've got the creators, producers, costumers, set designers, writers... the list goes on and on! We're incredibly blessed to have each and every one of them on our team though, as we couldn't do it without them.
Do you have plans for merchandising the series? (t-shirts, statuettes, dvds)
When we launch we'll also be rolling out our merchandise store, which will feature apparel and other smaller accessories. Eventually we plan on selling episodes digitally and DVDs. In addition, we're also developing an iPhone card battle game to tie-in with the show.
Sounds interesting. I cannot wait to see the series.
The Steam Guitar
Molly 'Steampunk Jesus' F at Steamfashion posted what has to be the sweetest guitar I have seen in a long time. I would love to see one of these catch fire a la Ace Frehley while the guitarist shreds some killer riffs.
2004- Year in Review
Poplar Bluff, MO... in the 21st Century
In early January, we moved back to the city of my birth: Poplar Bluff Mo. Neither Brian nor I were too excited about the prospect, but we were unable to secure work in California, and my mother was having a lot of health problems. The move was meant to be advantageous for all of us: we would help out around the house, and the odds of finding work increased.
Not long after we arrived, my father fell, and hurt himself at work. The hand of Providence had indeed brought us here. We had to pick up the slack. Brian found work, and I helped out around the house.
Editing "Liquid Sky"
By march, I had some free time, so I polished "Liquid Sky" into what I thought was a good book. It wasn't easy. The interruptions and agitations were constant. I can't tell you how many started: "Since you're not doing anything..."
My folks just don't see what I do as work. Probably because I enjoy it. That appears to be their real problem. With a great deal of perseverance, I finished my rewrites...
That wasn't the only thing I gave up. On June 1st, I quit smoking. Not because I wanted to, not because I felt like it, but because I thought I would slit my wrist if I had to hear what a disappointment it was, and "how did we go so wrong." I decided to quit because their words were killing me faster than the cigarettes.
I find it laughable that I started smoking because I wanted to, and I quit smoking because of "peer pressure." For someone as prone to depression as I am, I had to make the attacks on my character stop before they drove me over the edge.
"The side effects have been profound, but the dizziness is subsiding. I can't wait to be off the patches though. I have quit before, and I hope this is the last time I will go through this torment [from the Blog- June 1]." The patches made sicker than I have ever been. It was almost impossible to get anything done... and the nightmares grew worse. Vivid claws and ripping teeth... My nightmares are terrors on their own, but the patches intensified them into horrors beyond all description.
Ending all suffering... well, it's a goal
"My greatest goal in life is to achieve a state of freedom from suffering, attachment, and aversion. My addiction to tobacco is the purest form of attachment and suffering I have in my life. I will walk the path of Liberation to the best of my ability [from the Blog- June 1]." I had vowed to end all of my attachments, to end my grasping mind. I took refuge (privately), and began my practice in secret.
"I ride the waves, but I am no longer tossed about. That may seem confusing for some of you, and if it does, I'm sorry. But right now it is a private struggle... I just wanted to give you all a sneak peek [from the Blog- June 1]."
This is something that took me a while to talk about freely not until 2005: [http://christiansangha.blogspot.com/]
Parents' Health Improves
Mom and dad were feeling so good they went on vacation to visit my sister...
Lights in the Sky (July 4)
This was the first year Brian got to set off firecrackers on the fourth. His eyes light up with every rocket he launched. His joy and laughter were infectious. I hope this is not the last time, he enjoyed it so much.
The Submission Process
None of my submissions for publication were accepted... I am not sure why, exactly, but I have done a lot of studying since, and I think I wrote a poor query letter. I also think I started the story too late.
This will not be the end of "Liquid Sky," but it will have to wait.
Less Human than Human (August 3-4)
For the second time in my life, a state I lived in told me that Brian and I could never be married, because there constitution is stronger that the dictionary, justice, and love. What made things worse was all of the rhetoric, "We love homosexuals, but we just don't think they should be given special rights."
All I can say is, "Your love makes me sick... You and all of the other bigots like you. You can disagree with my politics, and 'tolerate them,' but you cannot be prejudiced against me because of who I am and 'tolerate me.' The KKK is not tolerant because they are only speaking out against minorities, but allows them to exist. They are still bigots!"
One of the brightest points on the year was the exhilaration I felt in the run up to National Novel Writing Month (Nano), in November. All year I had struggled to find time to write, and now I had something to rally around. No one could object to me taking one month for writing... or so I thought, but the dream of finishing another book drew me in. I began to prepare...
My Music Charted!
Just for fun I decided to release some of my music to Amazon.com. I didn't give much thought to it, I just sat down and uploaded it one day. Then around October 1st, I thought it would be fun to see how the songs were doing. To my surprise, they were charting!
In the end, they all did better than I could have Imagined:
- Alternative Chart- 60
- Electric Blues Guitar Chart- 20
- Ghost Dance
- Progressive Rock Chart- 3
- Goth & Industrial Chart- 10
- Mission of Love (Ultimatum)
- Alternative Chart- 194
- Progressive Rock Chart- 26
(From Blog 10-21-2004)
The Thanksgiving from Hell
Your soul can be rubbed raw... to the point where it bleeds and cries out within you. The pain of a thousand and one invisible needle delivering their poison one by one slowly over a life time is more than I can bare. My soul may be shattered and hollow, and I may have become too comfortable with that, but even I have limits.
I hope my optimism may return someday, but I am not holding my breath waiting for it to happen.
Reflections on Nano
One month of justifying why I write instead of actually writing... When I got to pound the keys, it was amazing. I loved the rush, the sheer thrill of naked writing (see blog), This year I will be ready for it. The idea is not flawed, but in my current situation, it is hard to find time to be alone to write. I usually work on the site while cooking, or doing dishes.
The Failed Quest for a New Book...
No new novel... no published novel... but 2004 was not a wash. I learned a lot, and I had to become more hardcore. Writing is in my blood or this year would have beaten it out of me. On the contrary, it made me seek out new out lets for my creativity.
2004 marks the death of naïveté and the birth or guerilla writing. Hardcore short fiction to expel the idea for it expels me. Just wait... you'll see.